Lu Yang

It is quite unbelievable to me that I have seemed to grow up in a millennium like I learned about so many tragedies in human history from books. In my subconscious, I expected something like this pandemic would happen one day. It seems that the decadent and the nihility is doomed to happen. My encounter and loss are acceptable, and I don’t want to complain. The tribulations of the deceased and medical staff are the most heartbreaking to me since they died for others in this counterattack of nature. My profession seems useless during this worldwide pandemic. I participate in some donations and charity sales, but these only can make me feel better. I hope I provide more help to others in my future career and do something for the world. I know it is hard, but I will do it within my ability.

I think the pain of losing a loved one is unbearable, and the pain can only be experienced by the families. Many of the deceased‘s families are mournful, helpless and filled with regret, because the deceased is alone in their last part of their lives. I am not their families, so it is not appropriate that I give them any message. 

I am afraid of the death of my loved ones; the Dharma is my only way to face death. The Dharma helps me to see birth, death, illness and aging from a macro perspective that these are parts of the natural process I need to face eventually, and these parts will arrive unexpectedly. 

In the beginning, I could not stop looking at social media, seeing desperate people asking for help on Weibo, and all kinds of horrifying and mournful news. My mental status shifts from fear and sadness to desperate when this pandemic becomes global. However, there are many things that are worse than the Covid-19 during this time: the anti-Asian racism attacks, governments shirking responsibilities, and people celebrating the pandemic in other countries on the internet. The negative side of humanity frightens me the most.I can’t forget the video of a little girl chasing an ambulance and calling her mother, and it tears me apart. There are too many moments like this. Also, I remember the News of a lot of Italian clergies who sacrificed their lives to help the dying. It makes me feel that Bodhisattva will save people in all kinds of forms.

 I think the whole world considers artificial intelligence and technology as capable of dominating the universe and achieving immortality. I always disagree with these ideas. The natural law of the causality of the universe will not let humans succeed. In this pandemic, artificial intelligence and other high-tech solutions did not save us, and human advanced transportation has increased the scope of this disaster. The entire human race should reflect on our arrogance.